only 3 things give you the upperhand:
good solid Power, an obscene lot of Money
or drop dead killer Looks.
everything else like Kindness, Ethics etc
almost never manage to work as well.
ive never wanted to fully believe this but
school and society always reinforces it.
all that about inner blah are perhaps
nothing more than consolations handed out by
fellow helpless, poor and ugly people.
the truth is brutal like that;
but the way it works is that the
adult tries to buffer it down for the kid,
kid believes it, kid finds out it isn't true,
kid screws up, kid is resigned,
kids becomes adult, kid perpetuates the very
mainstream social ideas that screwed kid up.
this is never an issue of justice/injustice.
justice/injustice can never be an issue.
it is a state, a condition, a status quo.
you can challenge it but you will never
really shake it up.
whatever circumstances we find ourselves in,
someone will always be in a better place,
and someone else will always be worse off.
sometimes its funny how rich kids
tell me about how this and this is frivolous
and meaningless and blah when
you and i are frivolous as can be, and
who really cares about meaning or whatever that means.
you can dwell on "meaning" deep into the night at 2.34am
when you are not subjected to societal expectations
in a social setting, but
seriously, how often can you carry forward
these Deep Thoughts into the next morning?
as we grow older
we meet people from all kinds of backgrounds
and then as bizarre as their lives may seem
to us, somehow or rather, maybe you
become friends, and then you get
sucked into this crazy need to keep up.
i hate to harp on this again but i really
have to point out that life is like the
darned journey from NTU back home.
you could be richer and have a car home,
rich enough to take the 179 bus
or not so rich that you have/want to take
the free shuttle bus out.
people in the cars will never see or know
the refugee-like dog-eat-dog queue-cutting
conditions that shuttle bus people find
themselves in everyday.
shuttle bus people will never know
the secret hidden suffering ( not that i know what)
that car people might argue they have.
we'll never know, but this is
the world, and this is it.
7:15 PM